Sleep? What's that?

Originally, I planned on my first post being about my weightgain/loss, my weigh-in and my journey thus far. However, the last few days I have been so out of focus, due to lack of sleep. So much so, I wrote a poem about it. Wanna read it? Here it goes!

Days Like This

Days Like this
I wish that

On the previous night

Sleep & I...

Sleep & I could have been

Good buddies

I mean BFFL's

Best Friends For Life
As a matter of fact

On days like this

I really wish

I mean... I really, really wish

we could carry on

some kind of hot and steamy love affair

We'd walk hand & hand

towards a bed, a couch, the floor

Hell,

I'd sit on Sleep's lap in a bar stool

just to get some rest

On days like this

I wish

We'd be playfully entertwined

into each others arms

And his soft carresses

would coax me into drowsiness

Or Sleep would pass out

passionate kisses

that would knock me off my feet

and leave me comatose

On days like this

I feel like Sleep

is acting funny with me

Honestly,

I don't even think Sleep

even knows who I am

when he comes by

he glides right on by me

and into the kids rooms

and is all up in their beds

What kinda foolishness is that?

Right by me

Like I don't exist

Like I don't need...

Sleep

On days like this

I am convinced

that Sleep is really a joker

Because

sleep doesn't come at night

when it should

Oh No!

It shows up at the oddest times

Like when I'm speeding down 35W going South

or when I'm at work at my desk

Or when I have plans

to finally have those few drink with the girls

Or during family night

while watching movies or playing games

with my boys

Or even

In broad day light

while standing in a park

Sleep has a weird since of humor

And I can laugh with the best of them

But today is no joking matter

On days like this

I'm groggy

I'm cranky

I'm emotional

I don't know my left from my right

my up from my down

I'm quick to snap

and slow to respond

I can't count and I can't read

I can't carry on

a sensible conversation

Nor can I focus on anything longer

than 3.5 seconds

So, please, you guys and gals

when Sleep comes by to visit you tonight

and I know he will

Tell him

I miss him

I want him

and I NEED him

back in my bed

Because

 on days like this

It's so obvious

that last night

was a Sleep-less night

I don't think people understand how much sleep is needed to stay healthy, happy and sane. Yes, I said sane.  Lack of sleep will make you feel like you're losing your mind. And that is where I'm at today.

Every little thing is now a major issue and drama. "OMG! I dropped my keys!" #Tears. Really? I'm crying about dropping keys now?!?!?!  You just can't focus and/or get it together. You can't think and you're emotional as heck. People will think you are nuts and you will feel unbalanced.

When I'm not sleeping, I can't do my workouts, because my body is nonfunctioning. I don't even eat very healthy because i'm too tired to prepare something.  This has got to stop! Quickly! This lack of sleep is not making the New Happy & Healthy Me feel so happy or healthy.

So, tonight, I have a plan. On a Friday no doubt. After my 20 minute workout and some good stretching, i will take a long hot bath to relax my muscles. While I soak in my lavender bubblebath by candlelight, I will sip on a cup of sleepy time camomile/orange tea to some mellow music while reading a book. This used to work for me back in the day. And I pray it works today, because I can't go another day without proper sleep. ~ KB